Acne

Why do I find it amazing that I never really had a acne problem my whole life, until I got pregnant. Then it never went away. Now I know how it feels to be the pink elephant in the room, or at least I feel like it. Before I got pregnant everyone would say how glowing and beautiful my skin was going to be. Eh, correction, it was a pizza waiting to come out. You never feel more conscience when you have acne and I feel so ugly. The good thing is most people knew what I looked like before this happened.
After the twins I went to a dermatologist and he gave me my magic pills. Which helped a lot and my skin cleared up. I finally stopped taking the pills and just used a topical. About a year off the pills and my skin is as bad as it has ever been. Back to the dermatologist I go. I will ask him to make it all go away before I leave his office, ya right, but it doesn't hurt to ask right?
I would post a before picture, but I think I am too embarrassed. Maybe after the magic dermatologist makes it all go away, I will post a before and after picture. Plus half of you see me everyday anyway.

Thoughts on Death

Death-

How does one deal with death? A Mother, Father, child or sibling. Does it matter how old you are when these people die? A death is a death right? I am glad I know the truth about life after death, if I didn’t, my whole world would be turned upside down. When someone dies that is very close to you, I think it does matter on your age, just based on how mature you are to understand and deal with the matter. People will always say stupid things, but not on purpose. People are afraid to say things, they don’t know what to say, they just want to help.

If you take offense when no offense is intended, you are a fool. If you take offense when offense is intended, you are still a fool. Abraham Lincoln.

My dad passed away in April 2001. He was in China serving a mission, teaching English in the Xian Foreign Language College. I hadn’t seen him for 16 months. This was very shocking, since he was very fit and he was only 62 years old. I don’t know if I just push it down and haven’t dealt with it properly, but I just tell myself I will see him again and there is nothing I can do about this. This is the way it worked out in the big plan.

My Father in law passed away in April of 2006. I was pregnant with the twins. I was the only one home at my house when I got a disturbing phone call, from a neighbor of my in-laws, telling me of the news. My Mother in law was on a business trip in New York. My two Brothers in law lived in Idaho and Alaska. They had found my Father in law in his chair, watching TV. They believed he had been deceased for a day. I was then responsible for phoning my husband and my two brothers in law. This was very surreal. How do you tell someone their father is dead? It is very coincidental since my husband told me about my father. Again I just tell myself he is in a better place.

It is sad when someone dies, for us here in Earth, but it is happy for our Father in Heaven and all of the ones before them.

My Father was married before he married my Mother. He and his previous wife had three daughters. One of them has and still makes it known that she has a hard time with this. Can you blame her? She has different religious beliefs that I do and I really don’t know what they are, but she doesn’t believe in a big plan or that things happen for a reason. I don’t understand how people could not believe things happen for a reason. Why do some of us see it and some do not? Why do only certain people have experiences and some do not. I would just like to point out, if her Mom wouldn’t have died, I wouldn’t be here. She wouldn’t know my Mom, she wouldn’t have any of my Sisters or Brother or more than half the people in my family. At the same time I lost a parent as well. I wasn’t three years old, but I still have lost a parent.

What is blaming God going to do for you? What is walking around saying “what if” going to do for you? What can you do about it, they are not coming back? God is a loving God, he didn’t take your loved one away from you, for you to be angry your whole life. He wouldn’t take them away to spite you and never let you see them again. No one is getting out alive, we all will die someday.

It is so amazing, to me, how we are all so different and how we deal with our problems differently. We all show emotions differently and are religious views play a major part in this.

I believe there is a big plan and everything happens for a reason. I have had revelations of my Father living after death and I know he is still alive, just not on Earth. I know that I will see him again when I die and that a family is for eternity.